My hearts all a flutter over......

These heels! 

These are the heels my beautiful friend Liss sent me to cheer me up :-) Well she sent the picture of them. They are my new favourites. I love, love, love them! I love them almost as much as her. 

Just imagine walking in these. How sexy would you feel. I am destined for a pair. I don't do red but I would so do these. Gosh, I don't even care that I don't have anything to wear with them.. I'd freaking wear them naked just so I could wear them. Sorry for the visual there...oops! I promise I won't do that.. I'll go out and buy a new outfit before I do that okay. Oh, I'm so in love with them xoxo 

It makes me all warm and fuzzy...

This is my favourite all time song. It's just a beautiful song and so I thought I'd share with you... Happy Friday everyone and have a great weekend.

Gotta love a bit of Tony Bennett xo

and it goes on....

This week is not a good week and it seems that the rest of the world is in the same boat. So much sadness around everywhere and I seem to pick up on so much of it. I'm quite sensitive to that kind of thing and this is why I avoid the news and things of the like.

My son is the same. Actually he is far more sensitive than I am. It's hurtful at times to see how much he takes on. He's only little. He has learnt to block a lot of it but he's still learning. Simple day to day catch ups with people or being in a shop or anywhere where people are, he'll pick up the energy. I do too but I'm more guarded than him.

Now when I say energy I'm talking "hokie pokie" as my sisters call it. People obviously know there own feelings but with people like my son and my mother and I, we tend to not only pick up on our own but pretty much everyone else around us. That isn't always a good thing. Most times it is bad. You are left feeling nauseous, sad, drained, headaches and many other things that people feel. My son at times has even been bouncing off the walls with too much good energy from people around him. We all know what that is like. You know when you're in a great environment with everyone happy and peaceful and you tend to leave feeling really good about yourself, well like that but multiplied with him.. as I said, he's still learning to block these things out.

This week I can't seem to shake everyone's energy. Something isn't right at the moment and everything seems to be out of whack. I am finding myself hiding from the world because I don't want to or can't handle all the sad and negative around. I'm needing more grounding than ever. I'm just not getting it.  I'm not the only one like this at the moment. There are many more feeling just the same. It's a very odd week... a really odd month. 

I just want to go back to bed on days like these.....

You know the days where you can't be bothered and everything annoys you and everyone annoys you?? Well I'm having one of those. I am highly irritated today. No one has done anything out of the ordinary(except for the rude checkout chick and I wanted to run her over with my trolley but that's a whole other story) and I am finding myself wanting to snap at them. I just want to hide from the world today for their sake and mine.

I don't know if it's hormones that is making me feel like this or just the fact that some days you can just. be. over. it. I'm tired, run down, my body aches and I just want to sleep a decent nights sleep. I don't handle too much stress and at the moment I feel like everything is going on and I really need to learn to just to go with the flow. I feel like I am running out of time and then I go and offer to do things or take it upon myself just to do it because it'll be nice for someone else not to bother and it all just adds to the stress. I don't want to have to think at the moment and I don't want to have to do anything at the moment.

Foolish isn't it? I am making mountains out of mole hills and I can't even blame anyone else LOL So instead of going and doing what I have to do I am sitting here bitching about it. Go figure. I roll my eyes at people like this. I'm rolling my eyes at myself don't you worry.

Okay so I have had my whiny whine so I better get my ever expanding butt off the computer chair and go and get something done before it's crunch time and I panic.... clearly I am not yet... I'm just building up to it.
Have a good weekend people, enjoy whatever it is you'll be doing and stay safe xo

Hump day happiness!...

Okay so here we have yet another hump day.. they seem to be happening on a weekly basis..funny that! ;-) The aim is to focus on the happy of your hump day and so this is what made me smile today.

I smiled because I didn't have to go to work today and got to spend it with two beautiful friends.

I smiled because the Tinkerbell hair accessories I got for a friends daughter had to be all used up to create a unique hairstyle. 10 thick hair bands and 6 Tinkerbell hair clips all piled together on tiny two year olds head.

I smiled because of the butterflies my friends and I saw. My friend Trine just loves them so. Actually I think Liss loves them just as much ;-)

I smiled because my son got stuck over the fence getting his baseball and at the huge effort it took for me to get him back over the six foot fence while we were laughing so hard.

I smiled because my son thinks he's so cool in his big white sunglasses!

I smiled because I got to have a half hour of silly song singing with Jay and his laughing had me in fits.

I smiled because Jay came out of bed to ask the very important question of... Does Nan & Pop have my birthday present yet? He just needed to know.

I smiled because my sister broke out in song mid conversation with me today on the phone, all to avoid getting in strife for talking on a phone whilst driving.. sorry for dobbing you in here but it is funny.

Thanks to all the wonderful people that helped make me smile today. I hope you all had a wonderful hump day too.

It'll happen...

I am reading The time traveler's wife... I'm trying to slow down the reading because I don't want it to end. It's beautiful. I accidentally got the movie out last weekend & I am so glad I did. Without going too much into it for the ones who haven't read it, it's the most beautiful love story ever. Someone you've known forever, waited for your whole life, been in love with, destined to be with. I love it & I know it's just a story but someone out there also thinks like me. Although it's a little different way of thinking,  I truly think there is the one out there for everyone. We can love others but there is only one keeper. One you cannot live without, cannot remember your life without, one who truly does complete you. I'm waiting for mine. I know he's there waiting for me. We're just not at the meeting stage yet LOL

It does make you wonder though doesn't it?? We're born into this life I feel with our paths already paved. Some have quite a few cracks in it and others just get that smooth clear path. Mine has definitely had a few cracks but I wouldn't be the person I am today without those cracks.

 I've been single for quite a while now. Probably longer than most but I haven't wanted anyone really. I'm comfortable with that. Not a lot of people are. I find it odd. It's my life, I'm good.. leave me be. It's not like I haven't tested the waters, it's just no one seems good enough for me and my little man. When I find him I'll know but until then, I wait. He will not jump out and say "I'm the one"I get that, but I'm getting there. I'm not going to settle again. I did that before and it didn't get me anywhere. Just years of wasted time and heartache, loss of confidence, loss of everything. Not planning on going there ever again.

My little man often asks, what if he's bad, what if he goes, what if he doesn't like me... well these are all things that I wonder myself. I have my guard up for all these things but I know that when I do find him, wherever he is, all will be fine. We'll fit. Mould into one. It's not going to be as easy as said but for the one you love, the one, I know it's different. I'm not expecting the movies crap, I'm not even expecting that a little but I do believe that we all have the one. My parents met in high school. They knew very early on in the piece that this was it. They've been married for nearly 34 years and have never looked back. It's not always been smooth sailing but they've always been the one for them. No relationship ever is. You're not living if it's always smooth sailing.

Anyway, the book... It's set from day dot. You're always going to end up with the one no matter what happens in between. You may even marry and have your own family but if it's not meant to be then the forces of the universe will change that for you. You just have to learn while going about that journey. We all get there in the end whether it be this life or not.

Hmm yeah so I've rambled on again about nothing too much but that's just what I think. I really do think you should read the book because it's so much more than what I've just crapped on about. Really it is and don't take anything I've said as an  indication. Just read it.